I’ve never felt such heartbreak before.
I can see how love is so fatal.
How it can twist your insides so much you feel like puking.
How it grabs your heart & rips it out of your chest, leaving you with nothing but a throbbing pain that eventually numbs your whole body.
How it drowns you in your tears and sorrows as you lay down in bed, unable to function.
all because the love of your life is gone.
love, you cruel thing.
How does this love thing work?
Love one & then love another?
….Then what happened to your old love?
That’s what I’m scared of.
I just want you.
No one else.
& I knew you wanted the same when I saw you break & cry with me that one night.
I fell in love with you more as you cried.
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.
I love him so much it fucking hurts, knowing I’ll be 3000+ miles away from him.
But I don’t regret meeting him & falling in love.
I’d do it all over again if I had to.
because it’s him, the love of my life.